I didn't give up. I know you might have thought so, the silence, no pictures, no travels, no plans no words but I didn't give up. I kept fighting to keep that passion alive, kept blowing gently on those ambers and now they have come alive with a passion greater than that I had before.
The beginning of the year was tough. I had to grow up a little faster than I would have liked but that's how life equips us with the skills that we need for the next chapter in our lives. So many things were happening at home that even the thought of travelling was one that I wasn't even considering. But it wasn't just travelling that I gave up. I abandoned my love of the lens. It didn't excite me anymore to go out and take pictures even of the beautiful things around me. I bought a lens, still hasn't been used because I just couldn't be bothered. I had asked too much of myself, and I couldn't keep up anymore.
No one told me that you can't turn off a passion. You can't pour water over those flames; they always burn even as small ambers. A passion is not something that you do to please others. It's something that you do because it's who you are. It's engrained in you.
That being said, I had the sudden urge to go to St Paul's to see the blooms. Believe me. It was as weird to me as it is to you, but I went with it.
As I was walking to St Paul's I thought no way are there any blooms there. None of the trees that I passed had flowered, but I kept going. When I rounded the corner, I couldn't believe my eyes. Not only was there 1 tree in bloom, they were 3 (all good things come in 3s) and I just burst out laughing. In the middle of the road with a lot of people around me, I burst out laughing. I could have given up that walk because I was tired and frankly I was running out of time, I had to go back to the office, but just as I was about to give up, I was rewarded with the most beautiful cherry blossom blooms.
So you might have been right. I might have given up slightly, but those cherry blossom flowers have told me otherwise, and I know that passion of photography, blogging and exploring is there. It's something that I can't just ditch. It's stuck with me, and I with it.